I Lay It All Up To You My Ultimate Protector

Father,

Take away all these worries I have with me. 

Show me Your holy ways. 

Please keep me away from harm and temptations.

You alone is my Refuge. 

I shall not want any other.

Amen. 

The Guardian Angel's Prayer

Angel of God
My guardian dear
To whom God's love,
Commits me here,
Ever this day,
Be at my side,
to light and guard,
to rule and guide.

Amen.

My Refuge

You alone are my Refuge
Amidst this sense of nothingness
I come to You humbly, my Lord.
Take me to Your ways,
Teach me Your will,
Protect me from evil
For You alone is my Refuge.

Amen.

When Sorry Is Not Enough

As human nature, we tend to commit mistakes in our lives

And often times, we take for granted the feelings of the people we hurt.

Saying sorry to others may not be enough to console them from the pain

No matter how sincere you may be 

It is still not enough.

Deepest form of sincerety means taking care of other person's feelings. 

Giving your best not to hurt the person.

For when you inflict a wound to ones heart

It may heal, but will always leave a scar.

A scar that will never be erased.

Will always be remembered.

Lost.

Today, I feel I'm at my lowest.
The sky was pouring its rain so hard as if it knew this tremendous feeling i have in my heart.
I am in this place far away from home..
I am missing home so much.
Life at home was hard.
But life away from home was harder.
I wished home was just a bus  ride away..
This is making me sick.
Emotionally and physically.

:(

The Other Side

Have you ever wondered why some parts on earth got to have most of the best things in life while on the otherhand didn't? Let me cite you some of these biases.

1. Some people, no matter how simple they earn for a living still get to drive their own BMW? While on the other side, people who worked til their last breath still get to feel then pang of hunger?

2 Some people are paid bigger because they talked well too much while others talked too much because they were underpaid.

3.Some people are born handsome/beautiful while on the other side, the opposite. They say physical appearance lies in the eyes of the beholder...f*** with that saying, that isn't consoling after all.

4. Some are born rich. Yes. SOME.

5. I am fat and others are way too thin. lol.

6. I am wasting my time writing this blog....while on the other side... _____________.



this blog is nonsense.


Don't even bother reading it again.

DOST-SEI Final Clearance

I finally got my DOST final clearance after 4 years of service. Yay!
For all DOST scholars who are planning to get the clearance...may this serve as your guide.

To get the letters [for Bureau of Immigration Commissioner and certification from the DOST regional director], you will need:

- photocopy of your Diploma
- photocopy of your TOR (transcript of records)
- letter of request address to the regional director
-Certificate/s of employment (CoEs)

I have my letter of request simple and short.

Engr. Rene Burt Llanto
Region 7 Director
Department of Science and Technology


Dear Sir:


I would like to request your good office for my final clearance.

Hoping for your kind consideration.

Thank you very much.




Respectfully yours,

Karen Celeste P. Roa
DOST 7 RA 7687 Scholar

I went to the DOST regional office and passed the requirements. The in-charge told me to be back after 1 week to get the clearance.

It is also advisable to call their office first to ask if the clearance is already available for pickup.

After a week, I called their office and my clearance is ready for pickup. Yey! :) I went right away to their office and the in-charge gave me the letters. I thought that's the end of it...but they told me that I still need to go to the Bureau of Immigration (BoI) in Intramuros, Manila to have my name lifted from their list for travel ban.


GAAAAAHHhhhhh!!



So I booked a flight and went to Intramuros. Good thing I have my friend, Audrey, to accompany me with this adventure..haha. We checked-in at White Knight Hotel Intramuros, the nearest, safest hotel we've searched via net.


From the hotel, we went directly to the BoI. There were a lot of people, mostly foreigners. I thought this clearance thing would take a while...but I was wrong. I went directly to Window # 12, gave the 2 letters, got a priority number, then waited for about 10 minutes...and ohlala!!!! I got the letters back, signed and stamped with "No Derogatory Records". I couldn't believe it at first (because as what I have read from other forums, they said it took them from half a day to 3 days). So I asked the personnel if I still have something to do after...and they said I just have to present the letters when I go abroad. Wuhoooo!!

prayer 1.001

Father, I feel like im so lost.
Lead me the right way...
I offer you all my emotions...
Take them and free me from this insanity
this anger, this pride, this anxiety.
Refuge me from all these..
I lay it all up to you, my God.

minsan lang kitang iibigin....

dahil ang minsan ay magpakailanman...

kou

8 minutes.

if I had 8 minutes to live... I'd do these tasks a minute each.

1. Hug my mom and dad.
The 2 persons I couldn't afford losing are my parents. They've been with me my whole life. Being a parent isn't an easy chore. I've seen them sacrificed their own luxuries and happiness in life just to grow us up. Remembering those things just makes me teary-eyed. I love them so much...much more than anything else.

2. Say good words to my siblings.
They have accomplished much in life already. I'd say I'm the least accomplished, but I think I'm the luckiest. I have them and I have spent more time with our parents.

3. Look at the sunset at the beach.
Most serene. Most emotional. Finding that peace.

4. Pray and thank God.
for everything and for knowing that I still have 8 minutes or less.

5. Kiss the one who have my heart.
At least for the last time, I wanted to feel him. Loving at times means letting go.

6. Think nothing but pure serenity.
For atleast you can rest your brain, your heart.

7. Smile.
:) expression of good things.

8. Close my eyes and think happy thoughts.
'Til end, I'm happy.


^__^,

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happiness facade in many forms
morph into both sensible things or abstraction
when asked, "what makes you happy?"
a sense of null moment enters the mind
searching for that unindexed thought and feel of joy
perplexed by the emotions trying to dominate the mind
yet no answer can still be considered
was it a who? a when? a where? or what?
as boggling it may be, we are still in the query of the one
for as human, it is the nature of it to being unsatisfied with what we have
and take for granted the one thing that is vital to our happiness... :c

live life to the fullest! life is short.